Do You Trust Me?

    Trust. This is one of the hardest things for people to do anymore, myself included. Trust. Trust. Trust. It is something that we are tested with on a daily basis in a number of different occasions. You trust that your car or the public transportation will be working properly, you trust that your alarm clock will go off at the right time, you trust that when you go to work you will still have a job, you trust that your spouse or significant other will not be breaking up with you, you trust mechanics, teachers, lawyers, bankers, and currently we trust accountants with our finances as we begin getting our taxes done and done correctly. Recently, I find myself struggling in this whole trust thing, not with anyone or anything here on earth, but I find it most difficult to trust in God.

    I say this because I know that I am not the only one who struggles with this from time to time. In looking to the future in planning out my first apartment with my soon to be wife, we see so many expenses and it is really hard to see if there is any relief to come. We see this in money needed for a church to rent, to pay for all of the rings, for an apartment and utilities. To be honest, it is overwhelming, not to mention that while talking all this, we are still planning a wedding and we both have our own personal jobs during the day. The funny thing is that, we both know in our hearts that God is going to take care of us, why and how; well because we are his children and for the how I do not know, but God has always come through for both of us before. The problem is that we need to trust this! Here is the tough and difficult part for me.

    Trust the Lord. Why is it hard for us to trust God? As I mentioned before, we trust a ton of things here on earth that include machines and people. Both of which are way more unreliable than God is. So why is it so hard? Is it because we cannot see God? We do not always hear God? We sometimes feel like God doesn't listen? I mean this list is just the very top on my own thinking. But these are so dumb to even think and that is the key.... THINKING! In my heart I know God is going to take care of everything, but in my head, well that is where doubt, fear, lies, and the devil is able to manipulate the truth into his own little game to throw me off. Honestly there is nothing to worry about because God has told me twice in the last day that everything will be fine including a line from today's Gospel. The other moment was when God spoke to me right after I received Jesus at Mass last night:

"Worry not about food, money, debt, or children. Simply trust me and 

the movements of your heart. The second guessing and doubt will derail 

the life I have planned for you and my daughter. Trust, Pray, and Love; and 

you will be taken care of"

    Is it a Bible verse, no, but it was on my heart so I wrote it down. Then today as I was taking part in Lectio Divina, which is simply a way to read the Bible with some really great contemplation and prayer, the line that stood out to me was: "Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packaged together, shaken down, and overflowing will be poured into your lap." I am told twice in a matter of 24hrs that God is going to take care of me, but I need to pray, trust and love. God wants us to live a wonderful life and He is going to give us exactly what we need without stipulation. So today, take whatever you are struggling with; offer it to God and trust that He is going to give you an overflowing gift of love and know that He will come through for you! He is our loving Father after all.